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my girl jessica over at PAVONINE designs some cute fucking clothes.  i went to her studio yesterday and got to peruse a few of their collections including yet to be released items hehe.

goddamnit.

i am such a girl.

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meow wow

i got a preview of my photoshoot with lee clower and wooooo…

got me excited.

i can’t explain in words where i go when i shoot with lee.  it’s like a meditation.  it’s a uniting of souls.  we both see.

it’s amazing.

fun.

and sexy.

i get to tap into something that normally i hold very very close to me.  but the trust i have in lee allows me to reveal myself.  both in spirit and well…

you know.

so liberating and freeing.  i love it and a...Read more

just like you are

i had a fantastic meeting today.

but since my dear john letter is still otw to the other peeps, i’ll give details later.

however, i left the mtg with instructions to take some photos “just as i was.”

and so i did.

and these are a few of those photos.

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out of mind, in of sight

sometimes i like to go a little nuts.

bonkers you might say.

it’s the best.  i mean come on.  there’s nothing like embracing the madness.  it’s fun magnifying those insanity pepper type thoughts that sometimes swim around up there.  why the eff not?

i spent much of my youth having to restrain myself in this regard.  my parents used to call me “wild.”  i think i sometimes scared them a bit.  they told me that girls didn’t act so wild and crazy like i did.  i realize there were a lot of factors that influenced t...Read more

PATTAY: thoughts on life

  if you thought we were weird before…

a traffic story

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shake ass

just a little blues break 4 u

bedtime

i’ve been staying up way too late these days…

house sit

oh great, i’ve become one of those fucking hipstamatic users.

location:  casa de bustillos

lovesick

it’s been a while since i’ve actually journal-ed on here and it’s hard to say why.  i’ve been feeling very private.  maybe that’s not a terribly bad thing.

part of me wants to say i haven’t felt inspired.  but that isn’t true.  i’ve felt incredibly inspired.  in life.  the life out here — or more specifically out of here [the internets].

or have i?

this is probably very confusing to you, and i will do my best to explain.

i’ve been somewhat withdrawn from the [public] internet since i returned from Australia.  not int...Read more