U is hot,I is liking

I find it funny as hell when people say so many things which U know are typical and cheesy. Now guys,when u want to start an interesting or witty conversation,make sure u can keep it going,and not start a car with its engine raring to life for a brief second before it dies again.

What the hell do I mean by that?

U wonder why I have been slightly more profane lately,yes? I wonder myself too,probably it's the unscrīpted text that I never show when I am with another walking,talking,breathing,human being. So appreciate my...Read more

love.christmas

i love gaps of silences in between music.

i love stepping into a foreign country right out of the plane.

i love smelling the aromas of freshly baked brownies.

i love independent films made with such precision even if they were obviously low budgeted.

i love hosting dinner parties.

i love discussing thematic symbols of plays,musicals and films/books/scrīpts/art.

i love reading philosophy.

i love macadaemia nuts.

i love walking on the beach.

i love going up to mountainous re...Read more

a prayer to God

Dear God

I have been feeling out of sorts lately,sick as usual and very vulnerable. I think I try very hard to recover from my depressive ways but I am too often too tempted to fall into the trap of my own emotional abyss. I hate wallowing and grovelling in melancholy and yet I am my worse nemesis. The me, I stare in the mirror is a reflection of the me I despise. I am Public Enemy no.1 and desperately in need of anger management. I don't see myself getting angry much but I implode and explode all over alone at home. I stare at th...Read more

missing mum: via facebook

I miss u mum.

This time round I could not stay for long,but u actually took a day off to make chicken rice for me. It was your first attempt but wow,it was exactly how I loved it. And u took all the meat apart,so I didn't have to deal with the bones. U knew I love breast meat because I'm the sort that hates gnawing on bones and then U wedged all the bones apart and removed them. U're so sweet ma. And u also helped me prepare so much chillies because U know I'm such a spice fanatic.

Mum,I'm sorry ...Read more

Moderates vs Extrenes

I am extreme,and excessive,in fact I'm extremely excessive. Pardon the pun honey but I TOTALLY had to do it. I guess most people would say,"be in moderation" about everything,from food to erm being of temperate natures.Mostly I feel like defending the edge of my extremes and excessiveness by screaming out loud at the mofos who preach that. So,would U like to be loved in "moderation" and also be told U're only "moderately" beautiful and that U are going to be "moderately" successful for the...Read more

unpacking

So,I'm just about the world's worst Mac user. Words like "retard","fool" and "dumbass" are flashing across my head as we speak. Someday I shall be the master of this computer,for now,I am looking at it with fondness and fear,at every second waiting for it to start speaking in a human voice bellowing at me. For being stupid. I know I know,learn how to use the Mac and I will love it. Keywords: attempting to!

I am cracking my head with trying to deal with some work and to clear my stuff from the boxes. Sti...Read more

The Stars

I am getting a hammock for my balcony. And I'll read there,and fall asleep under the stars. I'm also lighting the place with little candles, and because there's a little room right on the balcony,like an attic,I'll keep it as a storage room for little dinner parties.

Ok,maybe it's more of a rooftop than an extended balcony,or both.

Here's Looking At U kid.

    I woke up with a smile this morning. Although it was cold, I scrambled out of bed and ran outside onto my huge balcony (which is essentially rather old sch, and can hold many future parties and bbqs to come) and breathed a breath of fresh air. I'll make myself happy everyday by doing everything with twice the optimism and energy,that way I won't be depressed nor be pulled downwards by unnecessary negativity! Immediately when I said that outloud,it began to drizzle and rain! Nevermind,I take it as showers of agreemen...Read more

So.

I told D I was quite ready to start working out and go to the gym again, he looked at me doubtfully and said I should rest somemore. But at the rate I am going I'd be writing 2000 facebook entries a day,and probably go nuts still trying to do up the new place everyday. I need to prepare for some things coming up, if I keep letting myself go,I feel weird lazy and very fat. It doesn't help at this point to add more problems! I need a new workout regime,I need to really shape up.

Working out helps sometimes to make me feel better. ...Read more

In Trying Moments

I was crying one day because I met with an unpleasant incident over here and I called this dear friend of mine in Shanghai. He is one of those friends I have had whom I hardly see in a long time but I keep dear to my heart. This friend, is somebody who has such a pure heart and I feel everytime I talk to him,it was as though the distance never mattered. His younger bro is as diff from him as day is to night and I love them both. I think if U guys are reading this,U know who U are. I just wanted to say U are in my thoughts and sometimes I wo...Read more