Fits and Starts

So, yesterday was kind of a rough day in the life of Patty. I mean...not reeeeaaaallly. I have a roof over my head. I have food to eat. I have the clothes on my back (and the stupid amount of clothes in my closet). But as much as I was trying to see all the positives about my "A" agency dropping me, I couldn't help but get bummed. Fuck, I got BUMMED.

By the way, did I tell you I'm taking a break from the booze and ganja as a new years resolution? Uh...ok, I know I didn't, it's my own damn blog. So yeah...I am not shy to say I'm a social drinker and a smoker of green. But it was getting excessive because of my very "relaxed" lifestyle. I mean, I bartend two nights a week, but the rest of my week is open. The great thing is, I pretty much NEVER miss an audition. The bad thing is, I have too much free time sometimes. I have too much free time a LOT of the time. So, my occasional puff puff turned into a much more regular habit. Not only that, but I feel like everyone in LA smokes. So anyway, I decided that I was going to stop for two whole months. I know what you're thinking. Two months? That's it? Hunny, two months solid of not smoking is pretty damn good in my book. And plus, the point is to change the habit. After the two months is over, it will feel normal to be not smoking. While I was at it, I decided to just not drink too. And actually, it is WAY harder not to drink! Dinner parties with wine and meeting up with people over a drink are choice socialization options in this town. But it feels really good to be clean and I might just stay sober for longer.

ANYWAY, the reason I even went into that is because yesterday after I pounded out my submissions to those agencies (I sent them my photos, resume, and a brief intro message), the sun went down, and it really sank in that I lost my theatrical rep at one of the best agencies in town. FUCK. I was sitting at my desk, starting to feel tired, and MAN, all I wanted to do was smoke a fatty. But I didn't. It's just funny...i wanted to escape and not feel shitty. But it would have actually just made me feel shittier in the long run.

Of COURSE I have to end this entry with some decent news. One of the agencies that I wrote, AKA , called me to set up a meeting for next week. They commercially represent Daniel Dae Kim, and Lauren Holly for voice over, plus some young folks that are entering the scene through teeny bopper gigs like Twilight ( Rachelle Lefevre) and 90210 ( Adam Gregory) commercially as well. I still need to gauge how they are theatrically, but i'm thinking maybe i'll start looking at my options commercially as well. Who knows! Change is great!!!

Now that I have the meeting, I'm excited again. I'm hoping to get more meetings with other agencies as well. Please keep your fingers crossed for me!