What I think about Cheng Pei Pei

I love my mom. No matter what choices I make in life and no matter what mistakes… She's always there for me.  I'm very grateful to have such an understanding and supportive mother. That's why I feel like I have such a unique and honest relationship with her. Of course, we have our differences like any mother and daughter...I mean…let’s face it, she can be on my case so much that it will drive me mad!!! But, I love her for caring for me and wanting me to be the best that I can be.  I know that all her intentions are for me because she loves me.  

I looked at her in the past few days... all stressed out and upset over the events that have been happening in our lives…and it breaks my heart. I don't know if she could see how worried I was for her.  I pretty much starred at her and could barely fight back the emotions that were caged inside of me.  “I'm sorry”...that's all I can say. What can I say when I know that my choices brought us here today.  All I could do was repeat these words inside of me.."I'm sorry mommy, I'm sorry"....and still, she loves me...and still, she doesn't nag at me and tell me that it's my fault.  I'm grateful....TRULY and UTTERLY grateful.

I'm sure many people want to know more about my mom and my relationship. It's really not some type of show for us.  We are truly like best friends. I can talk to her about anything because she listens...well, for the most part   Yes, I can even tell her about my personal life.  She is very simple and easy to please.  All she wants is for my happiness and for me to find someone who cares for me and makes me happy.  Simple…that’s where we are alike…

Believe me, she is not what most people call a "sing ma". I hate how the media will blow this sort of thing up. And, even though she IS a “bad ass” in those martial arts movies….she would not even hurt a fly. My friends love to hang out with her and we all love to dance with her on a New Years Eve.  She IS the coolest mother anyone could ever ask for.  She is there supporting me because she really believes in me and wants me to do well.  And oh, did I mention that she is my #1 fan?  Funny, huh?  I think she has much more confidence in me than I do…My mother is a very humble person. She really is kind to everyone and treats everyone well.  She is professional at work and takes her job very seriously.  She is giving to everyone especially her children, and she loves her children more than anything in this world.  AND, here is the bonus….she can be cute, goofy, dorky, and funny!  By the way, if I ever call you a “big dork”!  That is a compliment.   

(I hope she doesn't kill me for showing this photo...but, I just wanted to prove my statement)

Back to the topic….If I had to go back in time and write an essay about “who I admire the most in this world”  There is no question about it….it IS Cheng Pei Pei!!!  

So, what brings me to write about this?  I don’t know.  I just want to be real.  I want to write about things that matter.  Yes, a lot is going on right now in my career…..but, I find it boring to just write about that.  I like to write about my thoughts and feelings because it helps me put things into perspective and be thankful for what I have.  That’s it…thanks for taking the time to read this very long blog….

Thankful and content…happy and excited 

 (we took this photo after a haircut in May of this year)(We took this photo just last week after another hair cut...and I realized that we are both wearing the same clothes! hahaha....guess we are very much alike)