moving on

Thank you for all of your positive comments on my last blog.  It has been a struggle that I have to face myself..but, it's always much easier to have encouragement from friends.  I am trying my best to stay away from sweets and other sweet drinks (other than water) for the time being.....mostly because I'll be going back to HK pretty soon and facing a lot of reporters....plus, I want to look good for my upcoming photo shoot. 

So, it's been strange without my friends from 42nd St...I guess you could say that I've been feeling a bit down lately.  I don't want to make my blogs filled with negative energy...but, these are my thoughts and feelings and I'm not scared to hide them.  After being with 42nd St, I realised how much I love to be in that world.  I don't mind not being the lead...it's just nice to work with people who love musical theatre...and to work with such talented people.  I've probably repeated myself over and over again...but, I'm ready to move soon...move away from my life in Asia and maybe live in London for a few years...just to experience another part of the world...and then finally move back to NY....I don't know....I've been talking about moving to London for 3 years now!  I guess, I've been too scared....I don't know what is going to happen...I have to worry about so many things! ...money...visas....living...work?  Well...I'll be in China at least till 2009...then...I'm going to take risks...and move...

My time here will be more for learning and getting experience...trying to get a name for myself in China....hopefully it will help me in the West End or on Broadway....hey, it works for people in Hollywood, right?  I'm trying to be more positive about myself and about life....it's hard sometimes when you feel lonely....but, I know there is a reason why I'm here....anyways...these are all my random thoughts.