Big Mess

It's such a big mess....but, because I've always been obedient..and I've signed a contract.  I think I'm going to have to work on this project....and try to throw away all the negatives and find the positives. It's so hard.....esp when you feel like people are taking advantage of you....and the truth is always being stretched in order to make things look better.  I'm sick of being convinced into things that I don't want to do.  At least this project is making me learn from my mistakes. 

I think the worst part about this whole ordeal....is that the person that I always go to and want to share with....isn't on my side and doesn't seem to understand where I'm coming from.  And, sure, we can't lie about our opinions...but, at least you can be there to support me rather than make me feel like.....

I have this friend....and we were talking about how sometimes you just don't feel like talking about problems to certain people because they tell you what to do.  Instead of being there for you and trying to understand where you are coming from...they hit you back with "you should do this...you should think this...you should have done that...etc".   It's not exactly helpful in certain situations...it just makes you start feeling like....I just wanted to share my feelings..not get lectured....I can't share anything with you anymore.....

just a random thought....