My song. (and a confession not for the faint hearted)

Crying over split milk is overrated, because while I did cry, the milk had been spilt and still nothing could have been done. Hence whinning would not have solved the problem. However I decided to whine into my songs. This song was written 4 years ago for my best friend,who betrayed me and caused me to lose my recording contract. Yes she did it the worst possible way. Downright low,downright dirty. Used my weak soft spots,and manipulated the other parties with lust,rumours and greed.Thanks to her, I fell into a deep depression and became almost comatose because she triggered bad memories of my very scarred past and traumas. Like a fragmented fragile broken doll,she wedged the very last of me apart,throwing what was my world and pain translated into passion and craft into my face. I used to pride myself in that no scars,no traumas would have caused me to have wanted to inflict harm on myself,but the betrayal by someone u really really loved was so painful that I went and did exactly what I despised. I didn't die and the experience humbled me and made me stronger. Thanks to this girl, I now face negative mofos who taunt me in my face/behind my face about what a retarded dreamer/idealist/time-waster I have been.  What they really meant was loser. They don't know the story and I don't need to explain. What was I going to say? That I decided to be depressed for a while and then I decided to recover because I didn't self destruct? Nah. People only love to look at the surface and wonder sensational versions.But on a morning like this,on a platform I feel like saying something,this IS my song. This IS my blog where I put my poetry in its truest form. This IS my world,it is AliveNotDead and I DON'T CARE to be Miss Nice today, at least,:) This song is on my page,track 2.LIES.

Dedications:

For Dax,who asked to see the lyrics. Thanks for liking this song. It sums up the whirl I was in.

For anybody who thinks they have had enough of fake-ness,of people's judgement and basically idiots who don't know. Just as stated,they don't know,forgive them.

And anybody who had a bad day/is having a bad day. Anything that you go through is meant to grill u to be a better person.

For the AlivenotDead people and all of u whose friendships I've made. Thank you,

love Lydia

你有一把剑                                                  

藏在那双眼                                                   

你说讨厌所有谎言                                     

你却看不见自己的脸                                

难道你改变？                                             

我怎么没发现                                            

散波了摇言   

却能够不眨眼                                              

** 你就是象个贼没眼泪地捶毁              

你办演好姐妹将是非指向我推，         

指着向我推                                                

我还曾以为                                                

好难地面对                                                 

其实你比谁                                               

更加地可悲                                                

*** 你就是像个贼没眼泪地捶毁               

(didn't ya know )                                                         

你办演好姐妹将是非指向我推                 

你就是像个贼没眼泪地捶毁                     

(didn't ya know)                                             

你变得像个贼没眼泪地捶毁                     

(did u think i wouldn't see)                          

没有眼泪                                                      

没有眼泪                                                     

没有眼泪                                                      

你没有眼泪。

In English

You have a sword hidden behind those two eyes

You said you detested lies the most

But yet you did not see your own face

Don't tell me you've changed

How could I not have known?

You started all these rumours 

Without flinching nor batting an eye

You are just a theif without tears, a destroyer

You acted as my sister using lies and falsehood

Towards me you planted 

Well I once really thought

It'd really tough facing this

But actually the truth is

You're way more pathetic than me

You are just a theif without tears, a destroyer

(didn't ya know)

You acted as my sister,using lies and falsehood   

Towards me you planted                      .

X2

You BECAME a mere thief, without tears, a destroyer

(did u think I wouldn't see?)

No Tears

No Tears

No Tears

YOU HAVE NO TEARS