i can find time to write now,
after that BIG night May 9th WOW launch.
It's good to be here....sat...quiet.
It's harder than one would think to write after a long stop....
even something u love so much...
so it's not hard to understand, why so many friendship...once u let it pause...
it then become long pause....then you dont even knwo where oyur friend, once a dear friend is.?
Lucky we have FB.
is it worth is? that 100% dedciation to just that one thing.
I think so....it's soemthing I'd never done before....
I quit drinkiing.......need to have a clear mind.....
overcoming challenges over chllenges with so liittle resources....
and to make soemthing happen....
after being witnessed by so many in front of TV,
this WOW TV is finally here. Just like every other TV station....it runs and runs...
What I know this is all beyond my ability.....i would say maybe 5% in total....
the rest....soemone Bigger....that bigger someone had and still are helping me along
the way...and that I learn and hopefully never forget...cos forgetfulness is our signature.
the bigger the project.....the more humble i m.
I felt myself.....the same joe....yet different....more mental muscles built...
more determination....
Wanted to give up 3 times.....gald that I didnt....
life as usual.....what that' didnt given up' seemed to add stength to my daily normal life.
strnagely enough....despite of the disappearnace from my usualy showing up to my kids
due to this projects.....to my surprise....
they are closer to me. When they come see birth of that sucker.....they are awed.
they realsie a new dad they neevr known,
no complaints at all....but joy in their face.
that's my most vaulable reward......understandig from then without explanation.
still the same closeness and even closer.......
all bcos I didnt give up.
I sure gone thru soem emotional ride when I have too little time to see thewm in person.
But He is faithful, he kept them.
if my heart tuned right, all these glories goes to where it belongs.
Things would indeed be taken care of and this is a sure n happy feelling....
Faith has grown in HIm and in Life.
miss u all now i m back.
j
a journey of feeling content. Everyday i pray this little prayer sometimes with my eyes closed sometimes not..... let me be real let me be honest let m