i love..

how my whole world can just crumble in a matter of seconds..

and how easily my heart can break..

how messed up everything can be as it all sits on me so my shoulders hunch over from the pressure and my eyes shut from the sting..

and i give up (as i always do) i give up fighting for what i want and what i think is right because maybe sometimes things just don't happen according to how i think it should happen and maybe people aren't the way they should be and maybe i should just forgive them

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you gave me their words but you'll never understand them

i don't know what i'm doing in this city

when i came to visit you

that's when i knew

i knew that before you did

still i'm the one who's stupid

i've never been so alone

the surface is everything

you smile

i don't believe you

i hope you take a piece of me with you

but you never see it happen

someone would see through that

this is the last time we'll be friends again

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a part of me is dying

i'll be honest

i wanted more

i wanted so much more ..

my heart objects ..

they've cheapened the word

love

and left it in a

mournful

hue

for a fleeting moment i found happiness ..

save your empty words

for someone else

keep your careless affections

your professions of love

your hurtful

lies

all to yourself

pick on someone

that's up for playing games

who can fool themselves

into believing

that love was meant to be this way

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all i can give you are my words..

please don't look at me like that

your eyes

they are overwhelmed

with disappointed hope

and they've managed to shatter my heart

but i guess that's rather fair

i'm so sorry

but i had to leave you

standing there in the somber darkness of the night

don't think it's because

in a brief second our friendship

was negated

it's just..

it's just..

you're not the one i want to love me

listen..

always

what lies before me

a path divided

"i want everything"

the words get swept away

as the wind chills me to my core

i shiver

another gust sweeps my hair over the glistening eyes

already they are drowning me

is this a sign?

i can seek guidance

but not answers

my choice should depend solely on

me

but they are all wrong

they affect everyone

and i can't stop it

yet what hurts most is the absence of

the line has been blurred

it's not fair

i love the music

not you.

bliss

ignorance

is what i crave

but you left me

with a harsh reality

how disappointing life is

self destructive tendencies have cost me what i had wanted most

permanence

in my life

a reason to stop running away

someone i can be sure of

that would never leave me

like everyone else

a home

"no one to blame but myself"

i think

as i retreat back into my silence