my sweet sister marsha

if you have any brothers or sisters, you'll know what it feels like, that whole relationship, the dynamic, the good times, the bad...how you ultimately want to protect them from any and all harm out there in the world.  you can say shit about them, but nobody else out there better, cuz you'll be the first one to go knock them down...that's how i feel about all of my siblings...we all have eachother's back...so, having marsha out there in shanghai doing this competition is a scary thing cuz i feel like she's out there and i can't save her, not that i ever could anywhere...but right now, i just want to protect her and cheer her on and not let anyone say anything mean, be cruel to her, hurt her in any way...i'm so proud of her, because what she's doing, i could never do...she's so brave, standing up there, singing her big heart out in that lovely sweet voice, waiting for people that really don't matter at all to judge her...i hate that...i've never been a fan of sports or competitions where you're being judged.  we grew up doing sports where we were judged...ridiculous crap giving these people all of that power to make or break you...i try to say words of encouragement, but that's really all i can do...be there...let her know that no matter what, she is number one...not just to her fans, her friends, her family, me...cuz even WE all don't matter...but to HERSELF...cuz nobody can take you away from you unless you let them...nobody is in your head with you 24/7...it's only you.  in some ways it's lonely...but if you look at it another way, you're really never ever alone, cuz you have YOU, and you should be your biggest fan...but when you DO need us, marsha, we're all right here...right in your heart...love you...