i'm so lucky

you know, i realized again today, just how very lucky i am...all of my life, i've had special friends, people who have entered my life, been there for me, supported me, cared for me, cheered me on when i had no idea what i was doing where i was going, people who took me in and loved me...i've been truly blessed...

just these past few months, i've gotten to know the alive not dead people, and they have become good friends too.  good people, all of them.  and the people i've met on this site, have all been so kind, so friendly, thank you...

today, i had a photo shoot, and i got to know the photographer, ania, a bit more, and i also met this amazing jewelry designer who, besides being an incredible talent, has the hugest heart of gold.  now, i've not exactly been the religious sort, but i do believe there is something spiritual out there, inside all of us, governing everything we do...and this woman, gosia, was like an angel/spirit/fairy that was sent to me at just the right moment...actually, if it were my choice, i'd have met her ages ago, cuz i wish so much we had had all the time that was already past...but i'm so very grateful that i met her today, now, and that from this point on, she'll be in my life...it's like somebody out there KNEW i needed her this very day...and she was, and she made me feel safe, happy, loved, and stronger...

everything happens for a reason...sometimes i hate that saying...other times, i just have to give into it...and KNOW, that it's true...and be, if not happy about that, at least ok...

today, i felt extreme happiness during our drive to and from the shoot...we just talked endlessly, honestly, truthfully, soulfully, and i cry at the thought...of how lucky i am...i've had the best friends in the world...