forgiveness…

Been a few days since I’ve blogged…

Recently I’ve been put to the test in learning how to forgive.

Last week I got into a heated argument w/ someone really close to me. Tempers flared, things were said out of anger, and self-control was thrown out the window. I’m no saint, and God definitely convicted me of things said that day.

As days went by and I tried to continue on thinking I was “right,” I noticed a lot about myself. I saw how bitterness really does give the devil a foothold into your life. My patience was gone, I had no peace, and I found myself reacting and getting upset over the smallest things. Worst thing about it was that I had no peace.

Finally as I tried praying one night, I felt God tell me to take care of my mess before coming before his alter. “If you hate your brother who you can see, and say you love God who you can’t see, you’re a liar.” What do you do with a verse like that?

I really couldn’t stand having this blockage anymore so I said, “anything God… I’ll do anything to have you.” Immediatly I knew I needed to humble myself and apologize for the things I’d said and done. So I wrote a letter of apology and forgave in my heart for what had happened.

We cannot control what other people say or do. If someone else is at fault, or in sin, know that they will have to deal w/ their own demons and bitter roots. All we can do is our part and trust God to do the rest.