my muse just paied me a visit today

so many feelings,

good, bad,

love, hate,

generous, jealousy

when they all piled into one, it's like typhoon 8 in your head

and you try to swim, because it's either sink or swim

you are no quiter, so you try to swim,

but then you got caught up and you dun even know where you are going .

you bounce around in your own head, in this typhon 8

trying to get a way out .

and yet nothing seems to work, nothing seems promising

the storm might calm for awhile and then it blows again

you starting to bit yourself up,

you starting to doubt...

'am i really that unworthy, am i really that bad?'

then a voice comes up, saying

" girl, dun fight, you are trying too hard, just let go. let go and you'll see'

you think it's freaking crazy, if you dun swim, then you'll sink.

but the idea of giving up is surly tempting,

for you've been fighting for far too long.

the minute you think of letting go, your realise that you are scared

you are shitting your pants, you dare not to let go

what if you die? then you'll regret you never tried hard enough

and then you realise you fight beause you are scared

the voice come again

' do you have a choice? do you have a better idea then?'

oh man, you are doomed !

so slowly you let go, thinking what more can you loose.

thinking your goodbye speech to the world,

you realise you are floating!!!!!

the storm is calmmer

you are still in one piece!

you seems to have survived this storm.

of course your hair is still all over your face and the clothes is still riped

but you are ALIVE!

the voice says ' See? told ya! you just gotta trust me, i know what i'm doing !'

you discovered a new way to live!

you are still going back and forth at times

but you know now that your time is not up yet

and that you are not alone

the typhoon might be blowing still,

but you are not the same.

something has changed inside you

just hang on to the world

someday we'll all be free...

.and that day could possibly be TODAY

you just never know ...

just be still and you'll be fine