What my old man says

Had a chat with my old man in his office the other day, he just came in the room, sat down and started spilling the beans, so i just sat there and listened for a bit. He told me stories about when he was young, when he first started off as a jeweler, the experience he had trading with the all-rounded diamontaire Lawrence Graff, who was only a lonely english sales man back then; and the acquaintance he had with the famous harry winston, who had such vision and gesture he admires and never forgets. He then relate them to himself, admitting he had no vision of such, had no particular goal or objective in life, at least comparing to his elder brother. He made a thirty years recap of his life as he was just casually cutting out images of jewellery design on catalogues and magazines that caught his eyes, intercepting with critical comments like, 'why on earth is something this vile looking put on the advertisement' or 'how can the exact same design be sellable for thirty blasted years?' While some comments seem bitter, overall is just sour, though I didnt feel sorry for him, instead i envy him.

Most of time, I respond to his comments only when it is required, by nodding a bit and smile. On the back of my head, it strikes me as i realise i m the exact replica of him, when it comes to his confidence with his art sense, his contradicting belief in design over commercial value, and henceforth living in denial. Despite our vast difference in appearance on the outside, we are quite the same brand on the inside; both hopelessly stubborn, with self-determination in our talent. No matter what he complaint on his industry, i can always relate to mine, the only difference is i probably stopped asking why by the age of 30, but for him, he kept on going, and thats when his career really started to pick up. Anyways, listening to what he said, brings me to reconsider what i should be doing with my own. I guess i should keep on going for as long as it gets, no matter what it takes, at least i will keep on asking why for a while. Wish me luck ^^