Outgrown...

I know - TWO blog posts in a week?

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I should be sleeping.

But instead I'm thinking.

Not for any reason in particular.

The thoughts just sort of float and hover as I potter about my room.

And yet there they are - thoughts.

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One thought in particular crystallized in my mind's eye:

We outgrow.

• clothes

• feelings

• tastes

• situations

• places

• people

See, I was browsing through a listing of TV series, and stumbled across "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".... and thought to myself -

'Gee, I used to LOVE this series!

Owned a couple of box set DVDs...

and hmmm... ended up selling them.....

and would I watch them again?

Actually, no.'

It's not just my TV-watching preferences that have changed.

I don't read the same books I used to when I was a teenager - I can hardly stomach those all-too cheesy romance novels these days. They're too full of fluff and fancy.

Growing up, I used to pick the "chang" (chopped spring onions) from my food.

Living in Thailand found me asking for extra spring onions!

When I was a kid, I'd order my cheeseburger without pickles.

Now I'd love it if there are extra!

In the (almost) year since I've been back in Singapore, I've come to realize that I've outgrown certain friendships.

BTW, I must make a note here - it's important you understand that my use of the word "outgrown" has no negative connotations - simply that things change.

And in this instance, I've realized that my preferences in TV, food, and books aren't the only ones that have changed over the years - my preferences for certain kind of friendships over others too, have changed.

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On a side-note, I think I outgrew Bangkok.

And that is why I felt that it was time to move back to Singapore.

Not that one is better than the other.

Simply that for this period of time, this is what FITS.

The tides of life are ever-changing.

We must change with them.

We cannot fight change - we must see that there are different things and places and people that fit different periods of our lives....

OK. With that very "zen" thought..., I bid you all goodnight!