just MUI

I can’t believe it’s September already! These past few months have been interesting as I’ve had a chance to reconnect with some old friends as well as meet some new ones.

So I’m taking a new class and trying something different.

It scares me a little but I’m forcing myself to stretch past my comfort zone.

I went on a trip out to Philly for a girlfriend’s wedding and was able to hang out with friends like back in the day, when I lived in Vancouver which was over 10 years ago. (I can’t believe how long it has been) But our little Vancity crew partied like no tomorrow and paid for it painfully with vomit and incredible stories. As I managed to catch up with some of my good friends one-on-one there was a great sense of relief that our history wasn’t forgotten. It’s something I fear a little because I get lost in my surroundings and sometimes lose a little bit of myself in each place I reside in. They know my old high school self. They know my quirks and preferred shopping destinations. They remember the silly boys that I dated in the past. They know what makes me laugh and what makes me cry. It was nostalgic but I loved how we never missed a beat!

Back in Toronto, I’ve met some new people that have only met me recently, since last year or some as of this summer. A summer where I’ve thrown so many question marks in my life that I don’t know left from right. They see a go-with-the-flow Sarah, or perhaps a free-as-a-bird-Sarah without much direction. Moving here and there aimlessly, but that’s also who I am and I have to take ownership of that. But I’m still a little guarded. There are so many parts of who I am and I reveal certain parts while others I keep away. Sometimes I don’t know how long I should hold on to them in fear of being vulnerable.

But I forget that I’m just lil’ ol’ me. Nothing to prove, nothing to hide. I’m just MUI.