Fear of Falling in Love

(posing for brekky in Bali)

I was catching up with a buddy the other night at my girls Jess n Soph’s birthday party. We were on the topic of “Relationships” and how its much easier to be detached than attached these days. With the kinds of stories of infidelity that circulate about people’s significant partners, only encourage me to abstain from walking into 2-3 week trials that nver last.

The minute someone is trying to meet me for the sake of dating me, my wall goes up and I walk away. I rarely layan because I find myself having to explain my dating methodology for the remainder of this year. Perhaps its my own selfish desire that I enjoy my alone time and that I also enjoy the remainder of my free time to be spent with friends.

With that being said, I’ll confess that I found myself dreaming of someone I met recently and actually feeling a serious, emotional attachment to them. (Mind you, its been more than two years since anything has come remotely close…) So that was really out of left field. gulp You see, I’ve barricaded every opportunity and have stuck to my guns about not dating-and has worked so far! Even though I truly believe my hopelessly romantic self will jump in when the time is right. (That’ll be when I’m truly happy with myself, not just my life)

Should I let a second chance creep in or should I just go on my merry way? Hmmm….