Its amazing really, the things that happen in life and how many friends actually mean what they say and how many will actually be there for you. Whole heartedly with no questions asked, no guessing your 'motive' (coz there is none) Just 100% totally and utterly there for you!
Last week I had many truths that faced me in the face.
I don't believe in gossip
I don't believe in slander
I believe if you cant say it to a persons face don't say it all
I believe in Karma "What goes around, Comes around"
I believe staying true to yourself no matter how tough the wave is, is the only and best policy
I believe in living a honest and humble life I believe that you find out truth in your life through rough times and who comes out from the dark to help you - maybe even guide you a little coz the lost feeling you feel inside and the hurt along with the pain can cloud us all slightly
I almost packed my bags last week and left HK for good, I was ready to give up - I felt alone and very much so. I booked my one way ticket and didnt want to turn back. Alone is a very lonely place.
It was a hard two weeks and putting a brave face on was less than easy
I'm a soppy girl with a big heart and maybe thats why I was used for my resources, networks and contacts. I was taken for granted and pushed like I never existed or helped along the way and it hurt. I love to help everyone but maybe I should learn that I need to help protect my heart and self from getting hurt again. I call many people my family and well its hard when I get burned and find out those I thought were family were actually taking what they could to climb on top and even laugh on the side. . .
You know, we all have a past that helped sculpt us. We have all had our pain and learned how to deal with it and maybe I haven't coz my past was a hard one . . .Maybe one day I'll have courage to talk about some emotional pains . . .
For now though . . .
I thank those who helped without having me to ask for it! MCG, Fletch, Scottie Hui and Gold Mountain ma brothers!!Lambert & Union Boys, Sofi my chica, Sky Tao my girl, Sara McCrary my adopted sister and me adopted dad Howard McCrary (and Ivy)! Of course without a doubt the man in my life my man Ste. . My four doggies and Maybe without even knowing it too AliveNotDead crew! all of you guys helped me get through the days the last two weeks.
So thank you all!!! Big love and hugs and all
Tiz all for now
MissyK* xox
p.s. I promise next blog to be alot happier
Am reading 'The Answer' pick it up, its a great book!