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In trouble.

A friend of mine is in a bit of a fix. And I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing by posting this up,but she called and adamantly wanted to me to show this so that u guys can tell her she's not alone. After this,I'm going to her house and tearing it down even if she doesn't open.

" Dear Lyd

I'm done. I'm done trying to do the right thing and fall and stand and fall and stand and fall again. I know it's part of the game of life,but I'm a bad gamer. Sick and tired of this trash. I fucken hate what this industry does to usall and the new issues they pull you into when you are basically just interested in fucken getting it together.

So many people tell me XYZ has been cheating/cheated on me. I try to end it but every fucken time he swings around and tells me in this bloody earnest voice that he was 1.doing his shit 2. misunderstood 3. people just want to set his innocent ass up and you know what?i fucken fall for it so hard everytime just because i'm bloody softhearted like you.I love you babe,you're just so sweet and compassionate.i call you at fucken stoned moments and you're always there for me without judgement. I don't know why you're not fucken kidnapped and shipped off to some mueseum because let me tell you babe,you're so extinct. I'm just sick of it all.Sick sick sick. I say I'm over him but it tears me apart when Iam trying to work. I think of how I've been lied to,how I'm such a sucker and these idiots laughing their pansy heads off at me. What throws me off is that he wasn't like this previously! TW is a fucken sin city.I hate it that everybody allows people to sleaze their way through. I hate it that I also did some unglorious shit myself. Now I'm fucken so close to OD I don't know when I'm sober or not. Sorry babe. If you see blood on the keyboard when you come next time,it's because I'm leaving it as an insignia. FUCK! I fucken hate this shit.

Maybe you should post this shit up for the world in your blog. LIke an aunt agony page. Maybe we'll have a call-in session and maybe the fucken papparazi muthafuckas will stop taking those shady pictures and maybe if they hadn't fucken snapped pictures of him and that slut,we'd still have been able to hold it together.

FUCK.I'm going to sleep/I ain't waking up to no heaven. Sorry,I'm sorry again,think I'm drunk.But then I feel so sober too.I love you Lyd you know that right?I love you Lyd,I'm sorry people hurt you so much, I love you Lyd."

I cut off the last part because it involved some details which disclosed too much but she basically wanted to know if she was wrong in trying to trust "him" and if she was wrong in being "silent" and now she's hung up on "stuff" and I don't know if she's in the best company that's taking care of her.:(

16 年多前 0 赞s 14 评论s 0 shares

Marie Jost

Definitely go and check up on your friend as soon as you can. It sounds like she is involved in a co-dependent relationship, which is very painful. It is a form of addiction and can put you through the ringer time and time again. I know, I've been there. Even more than the support of friends, though, your friend should seek professional help. Co-dependency is about more than ending a destructive relationship. To recover, you have to change some very basic things about yourself. The smoke screen of co-dependency is that you always think the problem is with the other person when, in reality, the problem is all yours. How you relate to others and what kind of a self image you have are all part of co-dependency. It is like any other addiction, you have to do a lot of work on yourself to recover and move on with your life. You also need the support of others to not fall back into the old co-dependent way of seeing the world, yourself and relationships. It sounds like your friend is sick and tired of being sick and tired. When you are at the end of your rope and see that it just cannot go on like this anymore, this is when people are most open to getting professional help. See what you can do to help your friend find the help that she needs. But also be compassionate--reaching out for help is very scary and you can only do it in a genuine way (i.e., not just to please others) when you are good and ready. Be strong and compassionate, but also speak the truth when you see it needs to be spoken.

16 年多 ago

Wing Liu

I am a guy, but I definitely don't mess around behind my wife. Guys or ladies who cheat that are into permanent relationship or marriage should be ashamed of themselves - divorces and breaking-ups are just so common and easy this day! If you want to mess around, just don't commit or marry! Your friend SHOULD dump this guy and just move on. Or even move city and start a new life. SIN CITIES are everywhere unfortunately. Cheating is just plain bad. My philosophy is either commit and stick to the same person or just don't commit and be a cheater all your life - simple. I AM DEFINITELY NOT THE CHEATING TYPE (sure, lots of nice fishes in the pond, but you can't have all of them - one nice one is good for me).

16 年多 ago

卡如飞

aiya, potty mouth! not to be cynical, but every city is full of 'sin'... you can change Taipei to HK, or LA or whatever... all the same... its human nature. getting played by a loser boyfriend is not cool though. i get very frustated w/ women who make bad decisions like this... self-respect is more valuable than not being alone!

16 年多 ago

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语言: English,Cantonese,German,Hokkien,Mandarin
位置（城市，国家）以英文标示: Taiwan
性别: Male
加入的时间: October 26, 2007