i’m dreaming of …

If you could have your dreams come true, what would be your wildest dream? When we’re children, we don’t allow ourselves boundaries & we dream the impossible. But as we grow up, we begin to limit ourselves and think: “No, that wouldn’t be possible. Let me try something else … Let me have another dream … Let me change my dream to become a smaller one.”

Sometimes I’ve shared my dreams and people are quick to shoot me down & pour cold water on me. But I’ve been thinking this week & reflecting… And I’ve realised that dreams are what causes us to keep moving on, and keep wanting to achieve the next goal.

My blog is a place for me to share my deepest thoughts, and wishes, slightly censored, of course.

What is my dream?

To be a working actress. Not in Hollywood, but in the Asian world. In Taiwan, Japan & Singapore – my three favourite countries. I want to be in those Taiwanese idol dramas! 

So what if others disapprove or call me silly? That is my dream.

I want to be in film. I want to kick butt as an action star. I want to be a strong female character, but I also want to play the demure female lead. I want to act.

And I want to act in English, Mandarin & Japanese (in future). I want to make my career in acting.

So that’s it. That’s my dream. I’ve stated it as clear as day, and put myself in the firing line for wet blankets & dream-killers. I’m ready to persevere on, and not give up. I’m ready to be a working actress. Not struggling, but thriving in the industry, enjoying the challenges, influencing the fans.

This dream is something that I’m willing to work hard for.

Sometime in the near future, I will be moving to Taiwan. Not a flightless fantasy, but a statement of intent.

Some people want to be doctors, others dream of being accountants & bankers, teachers & entrepreneurs, lawyers & wedding planners, charity workers & air stewardesses. I dream of being an actress.

I’ve been down with a sore throat. And I’ve drunk Luo Han Guo, Ginseng Luo Han Guo, honey water and starfruit juice in the past few days. So I’m feeling much better now. I plan to keep drinking these to nourish my voice & take care of myself.

I want to be kind to myself.

I went for a Short & Sweet acting workshop last night, when we learnt about Laban’s work, among other things. It’s refreshing to be able to learn and gain revelations in a learning environment again. It inspires me to keep improving on my work.

I will get somewhere, someday. As long as I never stop trying.