I Lift My Eyes

How was Valentine’s Day? For me, Valentine’s Day is an over-hyper & over-priced day, so I was happy enough to go shopping for sports goods & necessities on that day. Bought shampoo & conditioner… I also kicked off my exercise plans by buying a new set of goggles & swimming cap, as well as a skipping rope! I’m happy to report that I used my skipping rope that very night, but I really need more discipline to keep exercising! 21 days to form a habit… Does that mean I need to skip, swim & run 21 days continuously?!? Hahaha…

I’ve been busy with tuition and giving courses in schools. Of course, rehearsals for the upcoming “The Screwtape Letters” form an essential part of my schedule now. Rehearsals are taxing, and I had to sacrifice a dinner with my JC friends on Sunday… But I think it’s worth it. Everyone is getting more & more stressed over the production, especially the directors. However, I think I’m giving it my best & I’m proud of myself. Heh.

Been in low spirits though, and scared of slipping into a depressed state again over my acting career. I try & try and never seem to get anywhere. The ups & downs take a big heart to bear, and sometimes I wonder if I’m ever gonna “make it”. But I shall try & try again. Crying & feeling sorry for myself won’t bring me anywhere… though it is a huge relief to cry everything out. But, why can’t I ever cry when I’m in a role & supposed to cry?? It must be the lack of focus & the stress. That’s something I’ve to work on.

Finances in dire straits again. Argh.

I will lift my eyes to the hills, from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.- Psalm 121:1-2 -