long lunch

i'll paraphrase it. long lunches are by far my favourite activity between two people. my friends, always say dinner is the main meal with the most expectations, but with lunches, it can last the whole day, and go onto dinner, and to second dinner if interesting enough. those everlasting, never-ending conversations are by far worth it. one of my dearest friends Brains, who i seemingly mention every post, always have these LONG meals that go on and on; we're not always together, and our conversations will carry over the phone, emails, in person, or in texts, for hours upon days. In short, I genuinely believe that when you can experience a silence with someone that isn't uncomfortable, then its just the best.

these past couple of months, i have to admit has been a collection of positives, excess, and some negatives and disappointments, but mostly the former two. disappointment is something that everyone experiences and of course i've had my list of them, but i wanted to share a moment during long lunch that i had recently. A lot of people I have spoken to have been experiencing these extremities,and when bad things happen it seems and its just happening to you specifically. sometimes trouble comes in seemingly endless amounts and it comes an excess.

SB: "peawok, what are you doing to stay so positive everyday? life sucks."

peawok: "oh i've been seeing a psych-..."

SB: "a psych...what meds are you on?"

peawok: "no PSYCHIC"

SB: "oh.."

I see someone that "guides" me into having a clearer vision about life, and it really has helped, and my point isn't that everyone needs to see a medium, but it is so important to surround yourself with positive influences that do not hurt you in anyway. i entered a house full of disappointments and burdens the other day, and it fell onto my shoulders and brought me some sort of physical tension and pain. "you have to get out of this" i thought to myself. why fuss over it and let them bring you down in that way. i've been definitely feeling this negative sense of self entitlement but instead exudes more of lack of confidence in a lot of people, and maybe its where we are in the world now, i don't know. it manifests into our physical world and hurts us and all those negative people just gravitate towards each other and cause chaos. in the end just have a long lunch with Brains.