Sometimes we do things in life knowing that the outcome is not we're looking for, but it's still worth a shot.
Its time for me to pick up the pieces, the pieces myself and try to fix myself.
It's two days from valentines day, and you might be wondering what I'll be doing for valentines day. Well, I'll be getting on a plane by myself and head back to Taipei, I am in Tokyo right now where everywhere I go is about valentine's day. I was hoping that maybe I can make this a special valentines day like you'll expect to see in the sweet romantic movies with a happy ending.
I tried everything I could, gave everything I have but still walked away empty handed. Every part of me is telling me I don't want to let go but I know have to. I'm not sure if I will ever be able to, I'll have to keep it all inside, and keep from creeping out because what was a positive energy is now negative energy and it'll only hold me back.
I always love coming to Japan, I always have so much fun but I'm not sure if Japan will feel the same after this, because it'll bring back a lot of memories of her. But the best way to deal with fear is to deal with it head on, go straight into it. So I'll walk around the streets of Tokyo today with lots on my mind but I know that I'll have to come back when I'm ready and make new and wonderful memories.
Beautiful weather, wonderful food, friendly people, how can I be anything but happy.
Jimmy