i let the sun blind my eyes..

enter the sunlight

and the mourning sea

its existence merely a teardrop

in this vast universe

and i

just a beating heart

and these spaceman headphones

that bring me consolation

for i am grieving

i knew it

not out of fear

nor from my caustic cynicism

i knew it because ive learned to let go

and it is without attachments

or intentions when one is allowed

to see

and i saw

inevitable demise

i hate that word inevitable

it never allows for any hope

even though it knows i live for it

sigh.

thus i sit here quietly

lamenting my premonition

susceptible to whatever life has in store

for a weary me

so does this mean im being stupid again?