i never talk about my part time job, so i guess i will mention it…
the constant flow of money, even if it isnt a lot, is teaching foundation part time at visual 21, a portfolio school. wednesdays i head over to la crescenta and saturdays, los angeles…. suupppeerrr koreatown.
this is one of my student’s drawings, andrew wang. he is working on his first still life.
okay i was kidding theres no free jello. ah im such a bitch! hahaha
once again these are more thoughts of a neurotic thinker and compulsive analyzer. if you feel the need, save yourself and find something else to read. or, you can scroll to the bottom and check out the random question of the day. otherwise… here it goes….
i think the only word that can really sum up how i feel is fatigue. the problem is that ive been feeling like this for a while now. this morning is a bad morning… im irritated, stressed out, frustrated, and hyper...Read more
last night, i worked for aaaza as a johnny walker girl at a hostess bar. it was my very first time in a hostess bar, and i was apprehensive for a few things: one, i was afraid of the area because it was in gang territory; two, i was afraid that some guy would try to come at me and i would have to break his face; three, if i broke the guy's face, he'd probably try to stab me... that or i would have a tiff with aaaza... but aaaza has seen me get in someone's face for disrespecting me, so they know how i am. nevertheless, apprehension. i...Read more
i recently discovered that i had a profile space at artslant.com… so i decided to fill it out
bueno! hahahaha
my valentines day this year was awesome! i didnt expect much, because last years vday ended well but it was rocky: i had to deal with some legal matters, got yelled at by my dad because of it… my valentine was in oakland but didnt even wish me a happy valentines day… i self medicated by shopping, which was fine…and i cried because i thought i was gonna eat dinner by myself (my original plans cancelled on me…i was trying to suck it up) but i got to spend time with my boys in the end so it was okay… haha they got me giant pocky!
th...Read more
i have a friend from vegas who stops by my area to visit family etc. and i told him this time that we couldnt hang out unless i had some sort of baked good — his sister is a pastry chef and he likes to boast about how much he doesnt like desserts but devours what his sister makes. i figure, i could go for a muffin or something… maybe a fresh baked cookie.
when my friend, chucky, meets up with me at tokyo table, he brings goodies… not just anything though, a red velvet cake, a red velvet cake the size of a baby polar bear!...Read more
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i did some painting yestarday and it didnt suck! yayyy!! ive been having such a rough time trying to nail out some decent work, because im still fatigued after january… i have to submit a few things in a few weeks… so im trying to hermit myself even more and focus…
the next batch pf paintings are more about personal development rather than political. more or less its about growth: that its okay to hurt and be emotional, but finding ways to rise above the problem ...Read more
i find that at times, i prostitute myself to an idea or feeling
smothered tight and thick to a point where i cannot see.
now and then, feverishly indulge in the luxuries i crave yet cannot afford
i know it going in, guided by lights i think are stars.
but being gathered and held and touched are like little, white lies
strawberry candy that dissolves instantly on my tongue.
but it is what it is, i dont take it back.
hopefully i wont become sampled and forgotten.
he has the tools to be the best goddamn womanizing machine:
an actor, good looking, a rhetoric major in college...
he admits if he wanted to, he could sell you a used car, and ive seen him do it.
game over, man.
naturally curious, i cant tell if im holding something in my hand or looking at a verbal painting. it bothers me like a small pebble in my left shoe, but i knock it aside so that i can keep on walking. because mirage or not, i cant deny that ive had a good time the past few days. and more or les...Read more
ok, so i finally got a camera charger because i lost it around november… i completely forgot i even took these pictures so why not post them now.. random, yes, but i was never one for normalcy anyways …
female + gemini + hippie artist = 3 types of crazy = you lose. like an asian version of frida kahlo minus the old balls cheating husband .