Now that it's over.

We officially ended our production and now starting to editing the film. Our editor Barbara is on it and I think within a week we should have a roughcut of the film out.What did I learn from this experience of "Drowning":-Filmmaking is really really hard, esp. when you got 2 guys running a production. Luckily we got postproduction help.-Better preparation. Ideally for my next film, I'd shoot the whole project once on DV cam and edit the film to see if the editing works, and then decide if I want to add/change stuff before finally shooting the sucker. Test shots are necessary for editing purposes. It's a lot of work, but in the end it's worth it in my opinion. I think we did fine in our project, cuts will mostly be smooth but if i had more time/manpower, i would prepare like that for optimal performance to get the smoothest transitions.-It's not cheap making a film, even if your getting most of the stuff for free.-The process is slow and i hate it. I hate waiting, but that's how it is. It absolutely kills me since i just want this thing to be over with, since in the middle all u can do is just wait.-I'm definitely more well-prepared for my next project and will bring in all the things I've learned on this project and things i've learned from others on this production.-I'm glad it's over... it's been a long process. With all the waiting and schedule problems of people and writing and everything, it's been maybe 4-5 months. I know most people do projects quick and try to get as many projects in as possible to get better. It's a little different for me since i like to take my time with a project and do it like a real production, I feel it's pointless to practice something your not 100% about, most of the time it's a terrible scrīpt anyways b/c good writing does take a while.-Everyone's telling me not to worry, but I'm a lil nervous about how this film will turn out since we all spent so much time/energy into this film. I think i need to just let it go and we'll see what happens, if it sucks, then it sucks, learn to move on from that. If it's good, then great, shrug. can't put too much attachment emotionally into this project now and just let it go.After this film, now the question will come: what's next? is it time to go back to China and resume where i left off there? or should I stay here a bit longer and keep writing for my feature film? or should I move to LA? I don't really know, we'll see what happens. As much as I wanna get out of suburbia here, I gotta make my decisions with a clear head, don't let heat of the moment effect my decision-makign abilities. And my career too, what am i gonna do? keep acting? directing? both? It's gonna be a lot of Q's and A's and some 'soulsearching' on my part after "Drowning" is complete finished. I dont know where life will take me but all I can do is go with the flow. It's taken me this far and I don't plan on changing my course.