Yesterday went w/actors, and photographer/DP to our location to do some test shots, and damn... it was freezing as hell and I brought David(10-year old) who will play a little brother version of our main character, it was good experience but it was so windy and cold. And afterwards we went to the restaurant we plan to shoot our film in for a sequence and we asked waitress if we can use the place, she called her boss and they ok'ed it! so WIN! We are going to go there maybe weekend and shoot this thing really late at night(place closes at 3am). And tonight we have rehearsal with the mother from my scrīpt, it's been a helluva weekend filled with work and only now i'm beginning to realize I think I overestimate myself even though I'm fully capable. Here's what I mean, I try to take on writing, directing, producing, and acting in this thing, not including having to do casting for actors or trying to find cats who look the part, and on top of finding people to work with on this project. People have told me I needed a producer for this, and I know I do, but where the hell am I gonna find one? lol. So conclusion is, if I keep going on like this for next films, imma be a dead man. And yeah, I do plan on editing this film too. I was thinking last night since I couldn't fall asleep about all this craziness that's going on and how I know I can do this, but if I were to do this 100% at every job, it's impossible. I can direct/act/write no problem, but I definitely need some help from the producing side: getting locations, casting, line producer stuff(getting props and etc), b/c having to do that is really tough, and after reading RObert Rodriquez, at least he had Carlos Delgarado(main actor and best friend) to help him produce his film and get all the locations and actors. Sounds like I'm bitching and i am, bitching about hustling doing short films to making dreams come true, i'm sure it happens to everyone. I think it just ticks me off a bit that I watch all these ghetto ass films that are great films but made with little money and the director AT LEAST all have ONE cat they can depend on, and workload is split off and that guy takes a lotta pressure of, most of the time it's the producer, like Scott Mosier for Kevin Smith when they made "Clerks". Hard to admit, but yeah, the pressure is getting to me, but i ain't afraid of it, just pissed off and whining that I gotta do this shiz by myself. But when it comes down to it, I know I can do this and i will do this, and there's no other way around it. Like wanting to sleep extra 10 mins. even though you know you have to get up to go to school and whining about it. That's all it is... and time' up, gotta hustle now...
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