an excrutiating week…

‘failure to launch’ was not really just some chick flick movie, kinda reflects the crappy and exhausting week i had….

so my partner, or ‘the man behind the movement’ i so call him… knows we have a launch party a month in advance but never wanted to do it in the first place, and for some reason i thought he had it all figured out a week in before it takes place, but i was wrong. we were trying to plan things since last monday…. which is too much limited time to get most of the things we want done. the final thing we wanted was to have people who are working the event (our friends’ promotion company, blush) to wear our shirts… i really wanted to give away as many shirts as possible so that it would look like the entire club was wearing out attire. but of course, my art was slow to make, and it was the day before when we were trying to get things printed on shirts…. of course, to get kinkos to print on shirts… is realllllyyy expensive, my partner wants to buy a printer… which is not enough time to figure that shit out a night before… then we were gonna get the heat transfers made at staples and then the shirts made at kinkos (it was cheaper) but we couldnt even do that.. it wouldnt translate onto black tees right… out of the other options of bleach pen, etc, i decided to make stencils, and i had problems with my partner about that too… though he did his best. the night before, im trying to prep these stencils, on shitty paper mind u, so ihave to buy water resistent protectant and put the drawing on watercolor paper….. i got a parking ticket btw at dick blicks art store… and i was trying to carve out the stencils which btw our logo is too small to see so i wasted sometime of my life doing that……my friend felt bad and he took me out for a drink around midnight bc my partner could have planned it better but i had to eat it up during crunchtime with little or no reward…

the paint was getting weird and i was running out of time so i had painted the go go dancers bikini tops, and i figured i  could paint during class (the class is set up so that the kids work on individual projects and i tell them how to make it better) i had to work 130pm - 730pm teaching and i had to work with 7th graders…. i had no idea what to teach them and they said they learned cross contour (which is insane i learned that in college) so i tried explaining them cross contour better, and how to draw a dog, character language (also college)…. poor kids…. and i gave them a break and during the break i decided to work on the dresses for the staff… and then of course my boss walks in and sees that im doing my own project… she gets furious and lectures me… if it wasnt my first day working regularly she wouldve fired me. so finally she tells me what to do… give the kids a big project. makes sense. so they use the characters they made from character design and start to paint it in glitter…

the next class i had to teach killed me bc it was so small and i wanted to work on my things soo bad. the students have a lot of potential so im not too worried about them…. after class i go straight to the club, and mind u i didnt eat anything all day (except for water and a handful of almonds) i delivered the dresses and did what i could at the club, ran home and changed… i made the stencil on my dress while i was doing my hair… and of course im tired and its upside down but it looks kinda cool anyways and i wear it there…. i shelve out 20 bucks to park a block and a half away and when i get to the club, most of my friends are bored at our vip table… ppl showed at the club, but the club double booked so my friend who was working so hard got screwed over… perhaps for the better bc they couldnt fill the club up by themselves.. but the club definetly messed her up and now she owes money… so much for her birthday party.

and thats when i think about how big the world is and out it in retrospect… i was frustrated but not that mad bc everything i did…. the no sleep, fingers sore down to the tip, nausea… trying to get these stencils down, almost getting fired from my job, the drama, the time, the money wasted…. i was really upset. but at the same time, i wasnt too mad, bc i was worried about an apparel line ive always wanted to do… and now im doing it.. so im at least this far… and i was mad at the launch, but, at least i got to here..and… i almost got fired from my part time job, but at least i have a part time job… i work 5 different things and it pays regularly, so that makes me happy….

not too psyched about the issues with the company, but, keep truckin right? the world is so big.. naturally im still pretty emotional but …. i cant deny that im not happy with my life, bc im still friggin ecstatic.

hope all is well with everyone!

this next picture is completely random… me and terada showin off our goods…

he and i need to do more random pictures again, and soon