我在没有方向的国度徘徊，并非丧失方向感，只怨太多，我无从选择，唯有顶着飓风在天和地之间的沙漠穿梭，脑中的无理头，无头苍蝇般乱撞，试图从一个地方，找到出口，回到绿洲，饮一口甘甜的泉，看一刻悦目的绿。 

    找寻，原来一无所有，而一无所获，我要重生。 

    孤寂的夜，背后的沙丘，我尝到了泪的味道，是哭的，不！苦中带咸，辣的，不全是！辣里有涩，我盼望天明。 

    黑夜，成就了昨日的历史，黎明到来的一刻，我拭干泪痕，抖落一身的沙砾，踏去了新之路，继续在枯燥荒凉的天地之间，寻找自我

took sometimes to heal to get my heartbeat back!

took sometimes to look back!

took sometimes to think of my life!

in this farewell , this is no blood no alibi .

i'll face myself .

sometimes i made my family's hurt !

sometimes i making me hurting !

sometimes i make my friends unhappy who are really care about me ! and every step i take is another mistake to you !

now !

i had nothing to say !

i'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me !

i wanna know , i wanna heal , i wanna feel.

and i wanna find something i wanted all along .

something i need to remember just to breathe.

something i need forget it to make me happy just like anyone!

forget my memories !

forget my possibilities !

forget past that what is awalys hurt me !

i need get my heartbeat back !

i need change my to be reall me !

i want this and i want that !

i want to do myself !

i want erase myself !but i can't !

i want the God mercy come and wash !

i want make my family well !

i want to make my friends happy