I've Learned...

Two NEW words today:

Calabash, a gourd i.e. the one Drunken Jackie uses in The Forbidden Kingdom...

And Errant, as in an Errant Breeze...to deviate from the Proper course...

Or to move in an unpredictable...changing manner...Or a Journey of sorts...

haha...hence the name Breezy Pham or Breezy Loc...

 The translation from Chinese into English is "knight-errant..."

Hmmm...another Lesson I've learned...When I've "given" or showed too much affection or attention or just being "too nice" I've noticed, especially with the Females, that I'm somehow relegated to lowered social status...Which sux, but well, I think showing lovingkindness is something I'd rather do without any expectation for "reward" to say the least...

Maybe I've "shown" too much, and that's why I continually get "dissed" or perhaps I've such high expectations...Looking for Constant Approval...especially from those who do not understand...

It's like expecting an infected (rabies) animal to love you back when you care and nurse it back to health or something...That dog or cat ain't gonna appreciate your thoughtfulness since it's infected and become a raving mad, lunatic beast that kind spread it's Maddening disease to you...All hateful and vengeful, rather than loving or understanding...

It's not the dog's fault...it's the person who attracts the dog...and I keep "gravitating" towards the wrong type of person...Namely, someone who won't really appreciate the kind of love and Devotion I have...I'm a Loyal Lover, if the person I'm seeing is respectful and Loyal as well...and Trust is a Must...in order for anything long-lasting...and I care SO much...

For a LONG-Lasting Relationship...

anyhow, mistakes were made in the past due to Temporary Blindness and lessons learned...

I feel like wisdom is pouring forth into my eyes where I was once blind...

Naive, perhaps? I don't know...I'll just say that...I'm not going to be so hard on anyone nor myself any longer...Cuz I can't help it if I keep trying in the worst possible way...

I need to just be healthy and that will be enough...

To attract a mate will be something that will just follow the natural health I show...

As for lovers...I didn't know why things turned out the way it did other than there was a LOT of confusion and miscommunication...and a lack of trust...between two people, can drive one to do things or find satisfaction elsewhere...

Maybe I just want to be in Love so much I can't help but grasp @ something that isn't there or is just illusory...nothing permanent...and though the Buddhist philosophy is that nothing is permanent...and Impermanence is a part of life...

I still feel like there's a chance to attract a soulmate...someone you TRULY have something in common with...that will benefit both those souls...intertwined...feed off one another...and benefit one another...

I really don't know other than to say Tomorrow is a Brand NEW Day...so until then, I'll reserve judgment at a later time...Expectations = Disappointment

Like my friend once said: Fate is only determined by circumstances beyond our control...Destiny is how you choose to accept it...and Deal with it...Then move on...

So as my dear, good friend has recited above...I will only precede to "deal with it and move on" in the best way I can possibly do so...No revenge...No anger...Just peacefulness...Tranquility...

I will do the same for those who need or require it as well...w/e will help you on ur journey of enlightenment...I will assist in your peaceful trek through life...and for the madness and chaos...I leave to the ignorant of the ways of Compassion & LOVE!!! Boo-Yah!

Love aLL...

Trust Few...

PuhEast & Happiness
FriendsS! El Loco

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