Ok so I've been going out way too much this past month or so.

Anyway so tonight I was taught how to shake my booty by a cute chinese girl who has a thing called "jungle fever" supposedly. I dunno what that's about but I hope she sorts that out cus it sounds kinda nasty....

People keep telling me I have yellow fever but all I got right now is a bit of a cough so..

And I'm kinda red cus of the excessive overtanning as of late, not so yellow.

is there any other kind of fevers you can pick up here I should be aware of?

big respect to Gold Mountain and Ink for their part in the show tonight at PI.

Loved the disney animation references Kev was spurting out of his mouth at a million miles an hour..

filthy boy..

It's funny sometimes how life turns out..

It was only one year ago that I decided to change my life.

I can't believe I did it and I when I wake up every morning I still feel so grateful for the life I've been blessed with and the life I fought to make against all the odds.

Sometimes life get's lonely, sometimes stressful, but with all the struggles life throws at you, if you fight back hard enough you can always come back from the lowest parts and recreate or reinforce something you life and make it so much more amazing.

I don't know why I chose this life.

The other night my good friend Tchu and I were watching a movie called The Diving bell and the butterfly. It was an amazing insight into a man who went from being a famous and talented editor to basically a vegetable only being able to move his eyelid after a horrific stroke.

After the film we got into a heated discussion where our whole life came up, we eventually got to the topic of careers and she asked me why I chose to do what I do.

I stopped and thought, but I'd never really asked myself this before.. Everybody always just assumed you want fame, glory, money girls,

but actually when I thought hard about it I questioned these motives..

In truth I don't know why I chose to be a musician. I thought so hard about why until the only stupid answer I could give her was, I think it chose me.

I never wanted to be a musician for any reason apart from the way it makes me feel to perform. I heard one day if you're really good at it you can make money from it and actually live a life on it!

That was the part that got me really excited! A life making music without any other worries! Spreadin happiness through positive energy and helping people to feel emotions..

I don't have a plan B after music. I can't see a future for me in anything other than music.

and that too is my biggest fear, the life after giving up on music..

I simply don't know what else I would want to do with my life!

I look around alot in the street and asked myself what everyone does with their life. Do they enjoy their life? are they satisfied?

In reality the only people I see on the street that I know are happy are usually buddhist monks.

Everyone else is still fighting for something or simply have just given up hope and get on with it.

I wondered about a life away from the chaos of the rat race that is HK.

I often wonder what it feels like to find contentment in the small simple things in life.

Something we all overlook here and something that is so important to keep you sane.

When I was a kid I used to ride over to a Monastery in the UK far from my home and go sit with the monks and ask them questions.

From about the age of 13 I was addicted to buddhism. at the age of about 16 I was awakened by the teachings of the buddha. Before I studied buddhism my mind was chaotic, filled with overburdening passion and frustration.

It was only through the teachings of the Buddha that I began to peice together the complexities of life and really see life for how simple and beautiful it can really be. All my materialistic feelings lifted and I started to feel like I was on the right path.

So yes when I walk around the street, whenever I see a monk. I kinda respect and envy them at the same time. They know their path, they're happy with their path and they never need question if they are living morally. Because if they are living a monks life, they can only be content and proud of what they are doing.

Oh to live a life where bullshit ambition counts for nothing and the only real ambition is selfless compassion. I wish I was strong enough to be that kind of man. But I'm probably more genetically selfish than all of you!(I like to use genetics cus it actually takes the blame off you as an asshole)

:)

I know I don't follow all that I should, maybe music is the root of all my evil? 

I worry sometimes that becoming what I want to become is not neccesarily what my soul wants me to become. And eventually when I get what I want will I be the kind of person empty and left with nothing??

I wish I was a stronger person so that I could be a monk.

But I'm too selfish, it's genetic, take one look at my pops and u know where I get myself from.. :)

I know that in this life I haven't got what it takes to be a monk.

I hope in my next life the higher powers grant me the ability to be more like a monk.

Truly the most admirable people on the planet.

Another random and useless post by Mr Xu

Ok so tomorrow's show we got a couple of new covers creeping into our set!

we had a trial jam on them today and we will see how the go tomorrow!

learning lyrics now!

pray I will not forget them for tomorros show!

FRINGE CLUB! 10.30pm! BE THERE!!!

"I am hot" Is my new Mandarin word taught to me by a hot chick at a KTV last night. not hot in a good looking way, but actually I was fuckin boiling hot and sweaty the past few days.. I'll explain..

All the guys from the shoot here decided to drag me out clubbin yesterday.

We ended up in some seriously local MK style club called Richy! and just as it started gettin interesting the boss dragged us all off to some dodgy ass KTV bar.

Cus of the shoot today I stayed sober, everyone else was completely shitfaced playing with all the new toys they had for the evenin(chinese hostesses)!

the only playing I do at KTV clubs involves me basically hogging the microphone all night singing boyband songs, zoning in on my vocals and just ignoring everyone!

It was awesome vocal practice for me as GW hasn't practiced in a couple of weeks so I ruined all the songs Robbie Williams could throw at me!

Anyway today has been evil.

I got woken up at 7am (3 hours sleep) and had to begin the ordeal of shooting for over 50 outfits.

The studio was HUGE! like everything else here in Shanghai. I've not seen a studio so big in Hong Kong before.

The photographer was super professional and his helpers were ultra cool too!

My stylish and makeup artist was also kickass and by the end of the hardest days work I've ever been put through thus far we'd grown close enough to trade really dirty swearwords in our various language differences.

Anyway so the shoot was about 60 outfits. I thought it would be easy until I realised that every time I put on an outfit the stylist wanted to fiddle with makeup and hair.

At about 35 outfits we all had dinner and the funny thing is? WE ALL FELL ASLEEP! haha ALL OF US! we had an hours nap after au lam fahn. (the stylist told me she had wiped the drool off my face midway through my slumber as it was running across my face! haha)

we all woke up and continued 5 more where I was broken the news that we had the rest to shoot outdoor..

fucking hell..

the last rail of clothes is heavy winter wear and suits.. I looked outside. it's effin 40 friggin DEGREES IN THE SUN!!

so basically we went over to the Bund and I got fried to death for the last 2 hours. Wearing 4 layers of clothing in the middle of the sun pretending to be cold is not easy.

In fact I was dying..

I am now dead.

I took a few crap photos that I could squeeze in in between the "FI DI LAAA POK GUY!" from Kenji the director.

(one pic before I got told to fi di lei pok guy)

I'll supposedly be sent a copy of the best of the shoot which I am really excited about. If I get um I'll post um!

anyway I think the sun has got to me. I'm rambling crap.

I really loved what I saw of Shanghai, I wish I had the time to stay here longer but Gong Wu has a show on Tuesday night and I work Tuesday mornin so I can't stay :(

I can't wait to come back soon and tear this place up with my entourage!

Just been told I might have a job in Taiwan next week.

super excited about this one as it's right up my alley!

This weekend I'm working in Shanghai doin a shoot.

It's the first time I've been here and I'm totally blown back by the whole experience.

As soon as I crossed the border to Shenzhen the world seemed alien to me.

Hong Kong is so safe and easy to get around with my terrible Cantonese I'd totally forgotten how much I need to get my Mandarin sorted out. HK is like this protective bubble that shields pussies like me from the real world. Everything is so easy and comfy in HK you actually forget what reality is...

As soon as I hit the border it seemed like no one gave a shit about trying to speak English! I'm at the checkpoint and everyone's firing their Mandarin at me trying to make me understand what they're saying (I know how it must feel for a foreigner in England now!)

WOR BUH JU DOW! I mumble pathetically until they finally let me through into China.

I really feel the need to improve my Mandarin as with China being the new superpower, I can't see why they should feel the need to bother to learn English anymore!

As soon as I got the ShenZhen I realised quickly how much has changed. This place is so different to 10 years ago. By this point although I feel like pathetic excuse for a non-mandarin speakin half chinese guy I am seriously excited about being back in the motherland.

So anyway I'm sure most of you have seen this but has anyone noticed how FUCKING CRAZY people drive here?? I mean it seems like lanes don't matter, traffic lights don't matter, and pedestrians and bicycles REALLY don't matter. In England about once a year, you'd freak out in the driving seat watching some poor cyclist almost get ran over by some lunatic driver.

In one day I have seen about 50 cyclists dancing with death with the most complacent look on their faces..

truly amazing..

What really made me laugh is that in reality, when I looked around at all the lunatic drivers here shaking my head in disbelief. I realised that they all kinda drive like I do back in the UK. Except that in England it was only ME driving like that (and the odd boy racer type trying to race me every now and again) It was always me speeding, drifting my pickup truck around roundabouts, undertaking and jumping lights.. However I dunno if I could survive for very long with everyone around driving as inconsiderately as me! It must be in the Chinese blood I guess. (supposedly I'm worse on a bike)

Oh my favourite thing about Shanghai so far??

The traffic lights have COUNTDOWN CLOCKS next to them!!!!!

IT'S SOO MUCH COOLER!! you get the 3.... 2...... 1...... GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

every main set of lights is like first lap on F1!

I'm still yet to try Shanghai Chinese McNuggets. However I'm sure I'll land a batch later on today.

I feel that every country you visit's quality can always be determined by the taste of their Macdonalds. I've actually homed this honed skill down to merely eatin McNuggets.

Apart from McNuggets taste tests, you can always judge a country by it's driving.

In a nutshell, using driving as the example, the big difference between England and China?

In England everyone is so busy looking in their rear view mirror that they lose sight of what's ahead, they lose focus and because of their fear of making mistakes, react slowly and are scared of taking risks to the point that little get's done and it becomes an expensive and inefficient ordeal..

In China it seems everyone looks forward, no one gives a fuck about what's behind them, whatever's gone by is someone elses problem, and they'd much rather get to their destination as fast as possible with as little energy as possible going into pondering on what's been done before. The journeys are perilous, but extremely efficient and with nothing to lose,(cus their cars are usually banged up and shitty anyway) If you get hit, you don't stop to ponder the damage, you just carry on forward and don't moan about how beat up you got.

I think we in HK and even the UK, can learn something from the way China is driving forward.

Less whingeing, more constructive action without the beaureacratic bullshit that plagues western society.

Yeehaw cowboys! This is the new Wild West and me LIKEY!

After that rant I hope that their chicken mcnuggets are good now otherwise I may have to change this statement.