for you, a letter of departure.

for you, a letter of departure.

i'm embarassed by how i sound when i really, really cry. the miserable sound kept me awake since i noticed the dawn peeking through my window. after forcing in almost an hour of sleep, i used another hour to push myself out of bed, resilient as my body seemed to collapse in its original place. i search my face for the sunken slits i call eyes that have been drunk with misery from the wee hours of early morning. i hate that i have recently realized that i was still waiting for you an...Read more

throwback .

it was a throwback on top of a throwback, a weird yet warm and fuzzy and ironic experience, shared between myself, my cd, and memory lane.

i was sitting in the left turn lane waiting for the light to change when i noticed the song playing. the mixed cd was fresh in my car and i havent listened to this song in the front seat in a very long time. 'fly me to the moon' by julie london, it takes me back to a rich and nostalgic time when i wasnt born yet.  there was this one time, however, where i told someone to meet me at a 24hr winch...Read more

control .

i was never really a control freak....probably because i never really felt like i had a lot of control to begin with, but i learned to adapt. being an air sign allows me to flow with life and whatever it throws at me, and considering the very colorful life i have fulfilled so far, without trying to grasp control, it has still been great with some turbulence.

the last time i heard my father's voice was on the phone, unfortunetly i had to hurry him off because i was in a foul mood that morning. i was in the middle of discussing the ends o...Read more

because

just one of those days where my eyelids were little, pink blankets of raw.

im honest enough to admit that i am vain, in the sense i worry about the crushing workload and how it will effect my skin, because some of my jobs rely on such superficial characteristics.

if there was a time i could have used vodka in my orange juice to help me through the morning, today would have been the day.

they miss talking to me, but they dont really miss me. i dont know why that pisses me off so much.

i have never been so stoked to cl...Read more

three things

ive done three interesting things today.

1. i talked to my friend about leaving her company for another. it was hard, but we talked as friends and as business networks and we were very open to dialogue. i knew i needed to explain it face to face, which meant i had to drive down to a venue i swore i would never go back to, which was gang territory. i know its the best possible solution for me right now: my parents are going through some trouble with their tenants, and money is thin right now. my sister is moving to los angeles soon,...Read more

my 36hr journey .

work it out, non stop!!

FRIDAY: i worked as johnny walker product knowledge at diamond kareoke in hacienda heights… it was weird because it was on a pleasure block - i worked at the door of a hostess bar, next to a naughty store and a deja vu. i was like, what am i doing here… i have to teach four year olds in ten hours! it was chill, because people who go in hostess bars are reluctant to take free drinks at the door, its weird but its just the demographic. i got off about 2am, poked my head next door at the strip club before going ...Read more

“theres a storm in my heart”

friday, may 1st, 2009:

“the kids are alright tour” (2nd stop)

[ SUBTEXT GALLERY ]

2479 kettner blvd. san diego ca 92101

opening, 7 - 10pm

“there’s a storm (weathering) in my heart”…..(acrylic on canvas) 3′ x 4′.

its amazing how much i can write about the same goddamn thing, and i can paint about the same old shit, but it comes out in different ways. like a kalidescope, but not…

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PORTFOLIO.

i have a temporary portfolio site at

http://asiaengart.carbonmade.com/

since the website i have right now is more blog-based… this will have to do until i figure something out thats easy to upload and is presentable and more permanent…

yup! that pretty much sums it up, again….!

a journey of the past 48 hrs, documented by fotos .

my friday/saturday adventures, documented by photos .

my adventures begin on sawtell .. i was having lunch with my older sister who stopped by los angeles for the weekend… side note: dont you think its sketchy to have a bathroom with a broken sink? i hope those fools who handled our food washed their hands in the kitchen, otherwise, thats just wrong………..

my sister and i stopped by giant robot, and they were selling copies of jackie chan’s ‘police story’…. i was pretty amused to see our dear ...Read more

the kids are alright! 1st stop

i am participating in a traveling show called ‘the kids are alright’ with lebasse gallery. im soo stoked!! the first gallery is T and P fine art in philedelphia (http://tandpfineart.com) if you want to check out the show, click on:

http://tandpfineart.com/availableartwork.html

my painting is the first on the slide show after the flier — the broken swan entitled “you will be smothered ...Read more