Lately

I was at the intersection. I saw grouchy old man in cadillac sedan.he mumbled” fucking asshole.”  He was stuck in traffic. I don’t mind traffic.   I can pay more attention to the road, I’m scared of the speed. I mean, company spend millions of dollard to the billbord, we must pay attention to that. Ing Direct. 24 hour fitness. What a great idea to work out 3 in the morning. You must be on crack. If you think about fitness 24 hours, it’s more like 24 hours restless. That’s what’s on my mind when I drive. Thank god for my navi.

I want people to be happy. Someone close I thought told me, I shouldn’t be Christian,  because of the way I act. maybe that’s true. sometimes,  I can’t afford to be nice to everyone. But I try my best everyday. I want my close friend to be happy everyday because life is so short. Hope you will make it.  I came here to LA, I remember I had one box full of my family pics and clothes sent from Boston(got stolen anyways.) went to hook up my phone(and got money stolen anyways.)  all I had was my big dream. I went to this club on sunset, heard the song by LL cool J called “hey lover”. I still remember as it was yesterday. It was DJ Hideo. My first job in LA was go-go dancing to DJ hideo with DMK production till I landed gig on MTV dance show Grind then Soul Train.

http://www.prayforhideo.com/

Please. We gotta asses to shake, I just saw you and asked you bout your baby girl, remember?

Why all the people I love hurry and try to leave?  And how can you tell me to cut.

let’s pray.

I did. Because I grow up told homeless are useless. They don’t work, They don’t eat.Some are. They are just hooked on drugs.  Then my paster said something interesting. He’s not against church.  But what he say was it’s easy just go to the church.  But there is so many people who just go, and not do good. because they are just too busy going to the “church.” That’s why so may people hate “christians.”  

valentine’s day.

I’m feeding homeless. I’m not saying it to show off. I’m saying it cus once the word is born, I can’t take it back. Waking up at 6 am is a bitch. damn. One day at time. You will see me cursing at homeless. walk to walk, talk to walk, my chiggah

I learned

When you earn money hard way, it may last longer. Modeling days, things were easy. I like how I can adopt myself to the situation. I used to pay for cable that I never watch. Now, I learn spanish from telemundo. I used to upgrade everything. Flight, AAA, I had a black costco card. You can buy jet with it. (made by mattel) I’d order room service so I can make castle out of mac and cheese then eat lamb chop in the shower to feel what is it to be wet and wild. This must be it. shampoo my hair while eating meat with bone. Now, I’m strictly sticking myself to cheetos for late nite. Not puffs. They don’t last long. Crunchy.You are what you eat, I checked on my friend who loves mustard to see if turned asian, but no. My love is mayo though.

but I’m not going to be white. I eat orange chicken. I feel like such a sell out. I feel sell out when I eat cali roll. It’s gross but has mayo.We don’t even have that back home. (I love Jap mayo qupie. not sweet.) I’m allergic to dirty crabs and shrimp(poop) so by eating them I’m risking my life. I found myself very sexy. You can’t die by eating subway. Jared. Gay.

nemurenai.tabun, ticket morattakara? ashitawa, shiawasede nemuremasu youni.kamisama.  

I’ve been thinking bout is for along long time, but this year, I want to go back home. I actually was going home last winter. But I  had a chance to do lot’s of things I never have here towards end of last year. Just fun stuff, not just works.  I like this country because people are patriotic. People get together for silly things like super bowl.  Everyone care what Obama say. But I miss my friends and fam. back home. I got pulled over tonite. That sucked. No more blockbuster on friday nite.oyasuminasai!!